May I

It's not the lesser evil

It's the greater sanity.

She shrieks with joy

counterpoint to crying pain.

painstaking increments

w/ occasional serendipitous leaps

Living simply that I may

devote my time and attention

to my true vocation.

That a project is financed by "the government" rather than private industry

does not make it less efficient or beneficial.

Whether public or private, the important ingredient is management.

Private management is often awful -- see all the failed businesses and bankruptcies.

Private business, too, is focused on profit maximization, while public enterprise

when focused on its goal is about providing the greatest service to the people.

Who are we without our stories

to ground us,

give us our always home?

How I related, react, present, now

unabashed, unashamed, no chains.

Everywhere people catastrophize

problems, cry out about everything going wrong.

I'd rather focus on solutions, how we might

turn the tide, find shelter in the storm.

A bunch of lazy, anti-social, self-entitled complainers.

Make America Honorable Again

(even if we never were before)

Make us take courage and responsibility

to be honorably the land of the free

who use our liberty to create ever

greater good lives of good will.

5/2-9/20 

some recent responses on social media

It is now so clearly demarcated -- people who find their creativity and adaptability to re-source and uplift while others complain, incite bad behaviors, blame and scapegoat and create unnecessary havoc




US democracy sucks -- but just look at what we have to work with in regard to our electorate
it's not voting for the lesser evil when we have a plan and the ability to counter and ameliorate that evil, even throw it the hell out, once we have gotten rid of the evil worshiping current administration
Why waste our raging energy and time ranting against sensibility when we could be using those resources to make better plans for future governance, express and expand on them, and get more and more people involved in solution building instead of hateful blaming dualities.



kind of a test for capitalism -- if the market-based economy actually works, people will adapt to the new environment and find ways to make a living; and we do hear about the need for all kinds of essential workers to take the places of those who are sick, dead, or in dread of becoming so -- these protesters are of course voicing real frustrations, but also a wrongheaded  stance in regard to the exigency of reality




we don’t have to like Biden or trust him
we have to vote Trump out decisively, and then deal with Biden which we can do much more effectively than with Trump due to the GOP obstruction of justice
but most importantly we need to elect a Democratic Senate and end Moscow Mitch’s reign




the thing with the market, it goes up/it goes down/it goes up/it goes down and so forth
the market reassesses and comes back
dead humans don't

April released

shining crescent door

invites my mind to dreaming

longed for peace of night

 

 

4/28/20

 

 

Those old movie musicals, plots

to support the song and dance --

kind of like porn, but musical performance

instead of more direct sex.

 

 

 

People of loving spirit to let me feel

safe

cosseted.

So many seem to need hate,

to gather in racist joining,

keeping folk designated in their place.

Terror permeates this human world.

Why such perverted pleasure

gets elevated as who we choose

to be makes no sense to me.

And you?

Tell me true.

Why deny healing,

best of us awaking,

embracing touch called kindness,

so much preferable a base on which

to grow a human race.

Isn't it our time to realign,

to be kind?

 

 

 

May I find the Wisdom

to accept what I can't change,

change what I can't accept,

get over my damn self

because I am more than my memories,

lost in eternity, but not forever.

I am unwinding from silken binds

so soft it's taken all this time

to feel their pull.

Sublimely full of wretching

bullshit, ready to relinquish

expectations, admit they always

fail.  Sever ties to tribulations,

succor of revelations,

just nourish from what comes,

unfetter adaptation.

 

 

 

Every time there is an emergency

people get together.

See pretty stories of neighborly

community, sacrifice for family,

but also strangers because we're all

in this and know we can only get through

and out with each other's help.

And those idealists, hopemongers,

loudly proclaim a brave new day,

people needing people as rousing meme.

But that normality we anxiously carry

in our hearts as just return demands

dissembling, each a part apart.

 

 

 

Memories, stories about what happened

but no longer is --

what carries forward tells more

about you than then.

 

 

4/19-27/20

caught a rise

We are embroiled

in a time of existential threats,

among which we find the current

POTUS who seems to enjoy

apocalyptic chaos that improves

his ratings.

 

 

 

caught a rise

 

 

Anger is a response to pain.

Sometimes that pain is about

deflecting shame of embarrassment.

Sometimes that pain is about

long festering wounds that never scab over,

maybe quiet for a time,

then that new wrong reminds you,

exhumes intensity.

Sometimes it's here and now

cutting, searing, concussing, contusing,

abusing, denying you as human, or

demanding tribute you can't afford.

Brandish that angry sword to express,

transmute what you can no longer

endure as pain.

 

 

 

Give up the concept of normal

-- a word without real world reference:

We live in a state of change.

 

 

 

There are no perfect leaders

(what would that even mean?)

but certainly some are concerned

with the needs of the people,

while others are paramountly

concerned with themselves.

 

 

Identity is made of memories,

fluid, not static

 

 

 

People need to be positively seen

to feel okay in a frightening world.

 

 

 

Anger can be a burden, but also

an inspiration to discover succor

and possible solutions to act toward,

to mitigate your pain.

what has risen

You folk who like to say

You're woke --

All I want to do is sleep,

to dream a better world.

 

 

 

Ready, willing to sacrifice

others' lives implies

lack of value, of respect

for one's own.

My deep core of hatred,

shattered, taped together

mirror reflection of my self-derision.

Raised by love as pain, as rejection

without explanation, as lonely

yearning, turning, churning,

denying health as undeserved.

How insane our world to give

such power of decision to hopeless

battered children driven by self-denial.

 

 

4/5-12/20

Healing through Dance

Healing through Dance


La danse, c'est le mouvement, et 
le mouvement, c'est la vie.
("Dance is movement, and movement is life.")
--Ludmilla Chiriaeff (Founder, 
 Les Grands Ballets Canadiens)

What is is about dancing, in a group, with an 
intimate other, or alone, that can give us 
that mystical rush and promote wellness on 
so many levels? Is it the pre-cognitive memory 
of the rhythm of the heartbeat keeping us safe? 
Is it the emotional-spiritual connection to the 
natural world we feel when moving pleasurably 
in our animal body? Is it some atavistic source 
of healing from our primal days?
This is my quest -- to discover the healing 
properties of dance and how to best use and 
promote this simplest and most profound gift of
our physical being.

Throughout our history, dancing has functioned 
as a healing and balancing component, a form of 
 social communication and transcendent spiritual 
ritual. Though patterns and forms vary, expressive
rhythmic movement is a very basic means of 
relieving emotional tension and has from the 
beginning been associated with religious ritual 
and healing. We celebrate by dancing at weddings 
and festivals, and join others in dance as the 
quintessential romantic experience. Dancing 
alone, feeling the rhythmic sway and getting in 
touch with the extension and contraction of 
muscles in a pleasurable context, is uplifting, 
healing. 

Dancing definitely helps to bring up my mood 
and promote more sane reflection. When I can 
get so caught up in the dance that I no longer 
feel separate from the music and can move 
within it, it seems to free something very 
profound within me.

I am finding a wide variety of healing modalities, 
spiritual activities and holistic therapies based on 
our natural expression of energies through dance, 
as well as community and individual art projects 
promoting creativity and wholeness.

Most recently I am continuing through a LinkedIn group: 
Healing through Dance.   
https://www.linkedin.com/groups/12227388/
I envision a web between the various healing 
dance studies, theories, practitioners and 
proponents through which to find, share 
and expand on my own studies.

foolish

You tell me

the violence of my shame is not my fault

That survival is not a gift belying blame,

insisting anger be drowned in gratitude.

You say my attitude of self-regard

is warrented, is valuable,

as holograph of our larger questioning

of whose pain matters.

 

 

Scapegoating heroes -- elevating crooks

to the delight of crooks who hate heroes

for making them look bad.

 

 

There are no perfect governers

because there are no perfect people

but some are certainly much more

competent and concered with

the needs of the populace

than others.

 

 

3/29-4/1/20