Monday, October 29, 2018

deep defining

We all wander around enmeshed in various degrees of ptsd,
rarely aware of what we like to call reality --
which explains stupidly horrendous traits we like to call
humanity.
 
 
 
In a democratic republic, voting is not so much a right
(which some might see as a privilege)
as a fundamental duty of citizenship.
Impeding citizens from performing their fundamental duty
is a criminality, not so much against the individual citizen
as against the nation.
 
 
 
The meaning for conscious life:
figure out who you are, what calls to you
Now, use your life to create your answer.
 
 
10/26-29/18
 
 
 
It's suicidal times -- we lemmings jumping off the edge of the world, shooting and bombing along the way to make sure we all participate, including the planet and other species.
 
 

10/28/18

Tuesday, October 23, 2018

something like an introduction?

something like an introduction:
(October 23, 2018)
 
One while at a time
 
Fixated, like eyes to screen
dark parking lot after the drunks and posers
have departed
dusty in cloud-hazed moonlight.
Walking, as always, for emotional ebb,
to feel more subtlely, more able to
extend phantom hands, private hugs,

binding love.  

Sunday, October 21, 2018

Me seeks We

I send out to the World Wide Internet
what I feel I have to say to find
(if there is any) resonance.
 
 
I have strong issue with the memes of
“two kinds of people”
I contend there are billions of kinds of people.
Once we conceptualize “two kinds of people”
we become us and them – and not at all who
we actually are.
 
 
We can’t change the past.
Just because we’ve done wrong
doesn’t mean we need to keep
an evil faith.
We can change, going forward.
 
 
Figuring this life thing on my own
‘cause nobody else seems to
see it that way.
 
 

10/19-21/18

Friday, October 19, 2018

thinking about meaning

The meaning of individual human life --
the unique experience
 
 
Want (desire) is a starting point (entry way)
to find what attracts us, where we best might go.
 
 
Identity
 
 
You are not
depression
You are not an alcoholic
You are not a cis white male
You are not your zip code
You are not a Reality TV fan
You are not a Republican
You are not an atheist
You are not a vegan
You are not an American
You are not your net worth
You are not our only hope
You are you
ever becoming
 
 
1% of difference
that they can’t forgive.
What could they have
that makes their difference better?
That give their opinion power?
 
 
How do I get better – so I can be heard
in a way that matters?
 
 
10/13-19/18

Saturday, October 13, 2018

into October

moving meditation because life is movement
 
 
 
People react (often horribly) to pain,
rage, loneliness, feeling we don’t matter,
have no power to automatically understand
how to defend against unknown unknowns
that stab us from behind.
ab-reaction
 
 
 
My private little life is
mine, it’s fine, it’s me.
 
 
 
This tribe of belonging we crave
makes us create that subconscious
magic of translation
denial of the truth of connection
 
 
 
It’s not about identity divisions
(we each and all have identities – a multitude)
it’s about power, what we don’t have when it
counts economically
we’re talking about the slavery of held down poor.
And the real possibility to overrule powerlessness,
each our own, is to gather together around
our common oppressors, those who try to keep
our fight among ourselves.
 
 
 
Call me Cassandra – no matter how loudly
I scream, all anyone hears is madness.
 
 
 
Entertainment
socialization on screen
dramatic programming
intimate plays we engage
with these people our script
made up to be old friends
Minor supporting roles dismissed
with ease.
She’s not one of ours, so her horrible
fate but a plot device to move along.
 
 
We do disservice,
in fact cause dissolution of our
necessary unity to succeed in our
social projects, to label what are
metaphorically fan clubs
as tribes.
We can each be loyal and active
fans of many different teams, ideas,
places, people, passions – intersecting or not.
These false tribes are not identities.
Our identities are multiple, some say “legion”
-- and completely individual.
 
 
People who see “woman” rather than
perceiving me are wrong.
Why encourage such blindness by
allowing their shrinking of my identity?
 
 
Poor, ignorant because ignored children
band together, throw slings and arrows 
to be heard.
 
 
Feeling self-worth is not about awards,
force praise, but a model of respect, appreciation.
 
 
 
You know nothing about me, nor I about you
other than our assumptions based on what we
believe we see each other say.
The question:  Do we wish to learn where we each
find context, or prefer to live within what we
assume?
 
 
 
I hate intimately.
Not for some difference in perceived idenity
-- for hurt you do to me of your own free will.
 
 
 

9/24-10/1/18