for the most part we are not lonely
due to lack of human interaction,
but because we lack fulfilling relationships
in which we feel seen.
Yet, there are so many of us struggling,
suffering, in a vast sea of others also struggling
and suffering from this lack, as if separate
molecules unaware of the possibility of binding,
bumping and twisting around each other.
it just occurred to me: perhaps
all these
ridiculous outrages are a protective reaction
to all the agonizing, overwhelming realities
we wish to distract ourselves from?
Eureka moment humbles me
I know
it will not last, not enthrall for long
back tomorrow to my rants of disrepair,
of defeat in face of my inadequate -- what?
Intrusive stories, instructions on self-defense
against
self acceptance, acceptance of a world so vastly
inadequate, so implacable to magic yearnings.
Blessed seconds of grace, of break through to
the real, the true, the glory of free sail, glide
upon adventure's sea, escape from war-torn
human deceit, false screens that divide us
from life, so well. Respite, yes, on rare and
wondrous occasion -- then back behind my
self-appointed cage.
yes, of course, the state of mental health care
(of health care generally
more and more)
in the US is deplorable. However, while not
a totally separate issue, because the general
attitude toward human suffering in this supposed
wealthy, advanced country obviously leads to the kinds
of mentalities that enjoy inflicting mass murder,
the basic issue here
seems to be a clear need to do
better on curtailing the kinds of deadly weapons
that make it so easy, at the very least to have guards
against guns going to the violently insane.
We have to take care of
our resources, our people, our planet,
if we expect to progress,
or exist at all.
What if I have been wrong all these years?
What if humanity's natural state is War?
Building fortresses to strike out from
Spinning stories of honor, glory,
savagely heroic blood, guts, gory
imagery
Yearn of heart, mind, soul for
rich spoils, power's reward.
For that rush of excessive force,
plunge of swords, burst of bombs,
ecstasy!
So much better than life's drudgery
-- grand, free, worship of human
sacrifice to gods of Death.
Nothing matters
No thing matters
Feel!
No hierarchy of goals
No rules, no roads
No wrongs. No rights.
No grand good-byes.
Pluto in Aquarius -- AI dominance
countered by Saturn in Pisces -- primacy of feeling
When we become so chaotic
as to devolve into a failed state,
armed gangs will take over to
rule by terror.
I see Americans whose words
and actions make it clear their
desire is to become those
armed gangs, once they've
sowed their chaos.
Money doesn't work.
We use money to pay people
to work. But people are
perfectly capable of doing the
work they can do despite money
-- as long as we have what we
need to keep getting along.
4/8-14/23
