wanting to be green

 

I want to be green,

but I'm blue.

(What might that mean to any you?)

I want to be Life nurturing,

a force for healing of this bitter world.

I want to grow organically, infuse

beautiful truths throughout our

human dreams.

What I want to be -- not who

I get to be.  Entangled beyond

my ability to cut through,

and be true to my higher desires,

relentlessly blue.

Those memories that made me --

But that world no longer exists

for so many years --

or did that world only exist for me,

what I experienced?

What must it be to have that

oppressive history

weighing, scathing

no matter who you may be, today.

I never had that connection --

weighted, scathed, merely for being

unexpected, unaccepted, except for

here and ther, momentarily.

An important advantage to living

within a society is the organization

that lets us have access to the 

institutions, facilities, outlets to what 

we (individually and socially) need.

Yet we see so many areas of lack --

food deserts, news deserts, people

without access to the nutrition,

information, education, medical care,

so much that we desperately need to

have a successful society or human world.

Perhaps our best defense is good,

critical thinking education --

but who is going to sit down for that?

Happy to be a useful part of

community, collaborative and respectful,

such a joyful place to live.

I use drugs to reduce the harm of my pain -- isn't that the point?

the system that we would best want to work for us is broken

by those who want a system that oppresses us for their benefit

the system needs to be fixed, not destroyed -- destruction will only leave us with destruction and a bunch of angry assholes ready to do their undermining thing all over again

if the people who are ready, willing and able go out and find the means to  fix the system, we are all able to have and do better.

Iif Israel wants to be an accepted nation it needs to play by the rules and defend itself responsibly, with minimal civilian murder.

aiding Ukraine is not costing us, since we are aiding them with weapons our people produce

aiding Ukraine might save us, if we successfully allow them to be successful in stopping Russian aggression through the world

we have it all wrong at the border -- we would do much better to fully fund immigration courts and quickly arrange for work permits and aid in getting immigrant workers hooked up with American businesses

we would do so very much better if the political/media complex would stop being a national sport and give citizens the truth and education to make good choices for our lives

when overly stressed I have learned to breathe deeply, slowly, to the rhythm of a mantra:  slow, gentle, calm -- repeat until I feel calmed

4/14-23/24