deep defining

We all wander around enmeshed in various degrees of ptsd,

rarely aware of what we like to call reality --

which explains stupidly horrendous traits we like to call

humanity.

 

 

 

In a democratic republic, voting is not so much a right

(which some might see as a privilege)

as a fundamental duty of citizenship.

Impeding citizens from performing their fundamental duty

is a criminality, not so much against the individual citizen

as against the nation.

 

 

 

The meaning for conscious life:

figure out who you are, what calls to you

Now, use your life to create your answer.

 

 

10/26-29/18

 

 

 

It's suicidal times -- we lemmings jumping off the edge of the world, shooting and bombing along the way to make sure we all participate, including the planet and other species.

 

 

10/28/18

something like an introduction?

something like an introduction:

(October 23, 2018)

 

One while at a time

 

Fixated, like eyes to screen

dark parking lot after the drunks and posers

have departed

dusty in cloud-hazed moonlight.

Walking, as always, for emotional ebb,

to feel more subtlely, more able to

extend phantom hands, private hugs,

binding love.  

Me seeks We

I send out to the World Wide Internet

what I feel I have to say to find

(if there is any) resonance.

 

 

I have strong issue with the memes of

“two kinds of people”

I contend there are billions of kinds of people.

Once we conceptualize “two kinds of people”

we become us and them – and not at all who

we actually are.

 

 

We can’t change the past.

Just because we’ve done wrong

doesn’t mean we need to keep

an evil faith.

We can change, going forward.

 

 

Figuring this life thing on my own

‘cause nobody else seems to

see it that way.

 

 

10/19-21/18

thinking about meaning

The meaning of individual human life --

the unique experience

 

 

Want (desire) is a starting point (entry way)

to find what attracts us, where we best might go.

 

 

Identity

 

 

You are not

depression

You are not an alcoholic

You are not a cis white male

You are not your zip code

You are not a Reality TV fan

You are not a Republican

You are not an atheist

You are not a vegan

You are not an American

You are not your net worth

You are not our only hope

You are you

ever becoming

 

 

1% of difference

that they can’t forgive.

What could they have

that makes their difference better?

That give their opinion power?

 

 

How do I get better – so I can be heard

in a way that matters?

 

 

10/13-19/18

into October

moving meditation because life is movement

 

 

 

People react (often horribly) to pain,

rage, loneliness, feeling we don’t matter,

have no power to automatically understand

how to defend against unknown unknowns

that stab us from behind.

ab-reaction

 

 

 

My private little life is

mine, it’s fine, it’s me.

 

 

 

This tribe of belonging we crave

makes us create that subconscious

magic of translation

denial of the truth of connection

 

 

 

It’s not about identity divisions

(we each and all have identities – a multitude)

it’s about power, what we don’t have when it

counts economically

we’re talking about the slavery of held down poor.

And the real possibility to overrule powerlessness,

each our own, is to gather together around

our common oppressors, those who try to keep

our fight among ourselves.

 

 

 

Call me Cassandra – no matter how loudly

I scream, all anyone hears is madness.

 

 

 

Entertainment

socialization on screen

dramatic programming

intimate plays we engage

with these people our script

made up to be old friends

Minor supporting roles dismissed

with ease.

She’s not one of ours, so her horrible

fate but a plot device to move along.

 

 

We do disservice,

in fact cause dissolution of our

necessary unity to succeed in our

social projects, to label what are

metaphorically fan clubs

as tribes.

We can each be loyal and active

fans of many different teams, ideas,

places, people, passions – intersecting or not.

These false tribes are not identities.

Our identities are multiple, some say “legion”

-- and completely individual.

 

 

People who see “woman” rather than

perceiving me are wrong.

Why encourage such blindness by

allowing their shrinking of my identity?

 

 

Poor, ignorant because ignored children

band together, throw slings and arrows 

to be heard.

 

 

Feeling self-worth is not about awards,

force praise, but a model of respect, appreciation.

 

 

 

You know nothing about me, nor I about you

other than our assumptions based on what we

believe we see each other say.

The question:  Do we wish to learn where we each

find context, or prefer to live within what we

assume?

 

 

 

I hate intimately.

Not for some difference in perceived idenity

-- for hurt you do to me of your own free will.

 

 

 

9/24-10/1/18